From the start of this journey, I had lost my job in around August of 2013 and decided to take my shot at poker full time and my site Grindabit (a bitcoin gaming forum site). Success of both the site and my poker only lasted until Christmas time where I got scammed leaving me in the dust and my poker roll took a hit major that I didn't intend. I sold my Grindabit site to some great guys and embarked on a different journey.

In poker I had played mostly ring to lesson variance and once the scam hit, it literally took half my roll. I stayed in the stakes I was normally playing which took a turn toward a bad end of my short lived full time poker life.

I took my contacts and connections and didn't give up. I took up my love of poker to a whole different level and decided to take my remaining roll and instead of playing on it, I decided to invest in a room called Get Lucky Poker. It is going to be launching in Mid April. In the meantime, I have been a study of poker through TPE University and playing a little roll here and there and mainly getting ready to hit it this summer with a new full roll again.

I will be starting a new job in a couple of weeks and starting a new room and getting my roll back. I will play ccasionally but most time will be spend on getting this new room launched but the most exciting piece of this is being able to make it out to WSOP this year for a week and will be promoting my new site and will have my pros representing the site hard. The Mizrachis, Mike Matasow and several old Full tilt Pros are going to be ripping get Lucky Poker.

I will be around with some GLP swag and hats tees and patches if the TPE nation will hit it strong to help out a fellow TPEer will be great.

Things I learned to share to the TPE nation is that when my roll took a hit due to circumstances is to drop down so you can play optimally. Just be aware of your financial environment.

I am glad to go broke. Reason for that is I now know what is truely needed for survival. Roll is important to a poker player. I now know that Poker is not just a game of risk and reward. It is a mentally challenging game. You have to take care of yourself and get something a hobby outside of poker so you can change gears and not let poker consume you. The final thing about poker that is of utmost important for me is to keep learning. Be humble. We want to ultimately win every game and we all know that isn't real. We want to look at our game as if all decisions were right and positive equity in all situations. We need to learn that it is our edge. I like to say that if you can find the mistakes in your game then you won for you can fever the mistakes in the Next spot. Most of all break from the game, learn and go back crushing and never give up.

I don't look at this as a busto story but look at it as a new journey off an old one. For many that go busto after busto don't give up. Study hard. Don't play on auto pilot. Be aware of your mental environment. Most of all reach for your dreams like you never reached before.

MTT tourneys= 1 and 3 buck tourneys Freezeouts (no rebuys)

SitNGoes 1, 3 currently until i get 150.00 i will go up to 5.00 tourneys

Ring games 10NL NO HIGHER

If you know me, this is really really conservative for me. I typically take shots when I am playing just because i can't play. The evening tourneys on Bovada are pretty high. I hope to get some SnG's working in the evening and hit some ring games. I also have some money on BetCoin (which is a bitcoin poker room that is using the WPN software that are micro buyins) If you want to try that out, let me know and I can send you a link and can do a p2p for GDMP if you want to get in micro players. OVERLAY. I will also do the same thing on SealsWithClubs if you are interested. Just PM me and I can get you setup.

I have been playing poker since 2010 and love the game. I have hit every single downward spiral that seems to hit a poker player. I honestly suck at actually putting the time to make myself a better poker player. I think that it's time to "get off the pot or go home". I have hit every road block there is in poker, bad bankroll management, hit the auto pilot button, punt until my legs are tired of punting, laziness is what it really boils down to it. I want this behaviour to stop but it really boils down to myself. 

The next couple of days is purely going to be a study break. It's Wednesday and will study until Friday afternoon. The areas I lack in my game is bankroll management, math skills, 3 bet sizing, tilt. I am going to resume my tournament poker edge university and hit it hard. All background stuff will be taken offline like skype and games and have paper for notes and really think hard on how to take my game to a different level. I have decided that I have made the choice that I will make my game better and smarter. I am tired of my biggest poker leak is actually just me. 

I hope that you would join me for I am making a US skype thread to join me in this challenge for me. This will help each other. I think we can all gleam some wisdom with each other as we play on the US friendly sites and hopefully can discuss hands, and just fix these crazy leaks we all have. Mine is tilt (even though my appearance on the outside would not be of tilt, but if we punt sometimes, we tilt).

See you all in the video queue weeeeee

really enjoyed reading through your thread!

One of the requests from the TPE community is finding some folks, maybe one person who would want to review hands, etc that fall in the same sort of games as me. I play DoN's/5.00 and below tourneys. My current bankroll is only allowing me 3.00 and below until i get it up and would love to connect with skype and run some hand histories together via team viewer. Right now, i can't afford a coach so would love to get a TPE member that can work together for the same goal.

thanks,

weeeeee

I think i can add these DoN's to lesson the varience a bit for it seems profitable for me. At any rate, I can use them for getting the buyins for maybe the satties buyins to the bigger tournaments or to some of the lower buyins like the Big10 1K and the 2.5K games possibly in the future. 

I am really working hard at bankroll management. I have always had a hard time managing a proper bankroll. I tend to take more shots than I should that then my winrate goes to the toilet. I am really working hard and taking a shot at this and really be disciplined to work this roll up to where I want to be. 

My BRM is as follows for me: Not suggesting this for everyone. It is based on my games i play and my skill set (honest skillset).

100.00 bankroll

• DoN's 5.00 and shots at 15.00 (due to a skillset only).
• Micro buyin Tourneys 1.00 On Demand Games ONLY until i can see profit in them. 3.00 shots once meet 150.00 range.

My goal is to reach the 300.00 mark and then will introduce back in my schedule is the Big10 games (WPN games). The 5.00 1K game and any 1.00 and 3.00 turbo On Demand Games.

So i am going to stop and focus on the 300.00 goal and nail that in the coffin and then will update this.

Ok sticking very well with my stuff lately. I am hedging forward through TPE University and went through DannyN13 turbo videos and what do you think? Well i binked the turbo games on winning twice and my ITM % has increased in the turbos. I also take to heart the article that Killingbird wrote Good Poker Players Copy, Great Poker Players Steal Now. Don't try and copy the players you watch on video but in fact "steal" it. In other words, took it to mean that I need to adjust my own craft that I am comfortable with, do a hand history of your own games. When looking at hand history, look at where you need to adjust based on things that stick out that can hone in on your craft. I look at poker as a craft. Craft can adjust and bend to the tune of the players to bring profit to your game. 

I read TTWISTS goals on the post in here and he had something that stuck out to me. I struggle with taking shots that I don't have business in, sitngos too high and i run into these re-entry games on black chip poker and kind of hit auto pilot and play the game as if it's rebuy and not really pay much attention to do the one "bullet" and play out that one bullet optimally. 

Another thing that I have done is be honest with my wife. She isn't much a poker player but she understands tilt. She holds me accountable. I have strugged with other games outside of poker like Black Jack. etc. and it's not a pretty picture for me. I have taken months of building a bankroll and dump it all within minutes on a blackjack table due to tilt and then busto. I don't want that mess again. I won't play on a site that has blackjack or any pit games on the site so that is the main reason I am on the Winning Network. I requested those games off and they in fact turn it off for me and it's just poker for I don't ever want to go down the same road.

I like to update you all and hope to meet every one of you guys. I like to sit in chat and chill with people and love to rail others and learn as I in fact play and encourage one another. Good luck grindin....

I am still a full-time grinder but been mostly playing ring games but want to dive right back into my fav… MTT"s. I had been playing mostly in the bitcoin poker rooms but the MTT's there just don't have anywhere close to the action where I like which is more MTT's. So hopefully as I see that WPN is opening up to bitcoin slowely, they may open it up for US US Mericans. 

I landed a little depo on Black Chip Poker and hopefully grind that Online Super Series. I remember grinding along with all the TPE'rs back with the first Maximus Seriese with Rivermen, JLude, Killingbird, and AZN so hopefully see that happen again in teh OSS III on WPN. I want to get prepped for that and get some satties in and play again. 

I will continue the goal of just solid bankroll managment as I always do and really keep this thread up to let you all in on a fish turning to shark. I hope to be more of a "flounder in training". I also may use this as my blog and post a bit about bitcoin. I have a bitcoin articles up on .....epoker.com if interested. I am the dude that is all about Bitcoins. It will be huge in 2014. If the guys will allow me, I would love to blog about bitcoins or link. 

Bitcoins in 2014 i think will be at 2150.00 anyone want to prop bet this? Over under? hmmm. AZNallin007, you want in on this? 

Playing reactively is defined as playing for purpose of an emergency will. A state of goals that are made in the mind to gain quickly based on goals "or else" type of attitude. The causes of this reactive state is initially playing above your bankroll requirements. Also, it could be that your bankroll requirements are loftier than where you actually need to be. 

The reason for my reactive state is at the start, I had a setback in personal expenses that pretty much ruined my positive proactive approach of my game. When i hit the setback, I didn't go down in stakes (which is mistake #1). My mental mind was shot when I lost 1/2 my life roll was affected by this event. I tried to go down in stakes but the prizepool didn't seem as nearly significant than where I was so I took shots back to where I was but my mental outlook on the game was shot and lost quite a bit from there. 

Sometimes in these particular posts, we see a lot of the good things and the good life of a poker player but I would want to bring it real to the TPE Nation. It is brought me to the micro stakes games on ring and micro stakes on tourneys. This is where I feel i need to get it right. I decide at this time to break from poker "playing". I need a proactive mindset. I have got a couple of books that I am going to hit (one is the Mental Game of Poker #1 and #2) and thankfully this is going to be my daily spot to come in, watch videos, browse the forum here and hopefully learn from the best. Until my mindset is back in a proactive state of mind, best for me to study the felt and not play the felt.

I also thankfully have my backup plan which is my website which I have grown very fond of. This site is my stability of my liferoll. I am a bitcoin enthusiast and I am thankful that my bitcoins that I initially invested last year. I bought my first bitcoin at $8.00 for a bitcoin (BTC) and now is up to $500.00. I have been given opportunity after opportunity to really bring value to the bitcoin community and in particular the bitcoin gaming opportunity. If you want to know more about bitcoin and how to make use of it, hit me up here. I can talk all day about bitcoin, ask Marc Alioto. 

Anyways, if the community could recommend some good books, let me know and i can add it on the list. I find that when poker isn't fun anymore, then it is a good time to leave it and come back to it with a clear head. I have left poker a time or two, come back and crush it again. 

Instead of getting mad I just remind myself how bad the other guy played it and maybe make a "FISH" note or sumthin on him lol. Believe it or not but that little bit of typing I find helps me vent some and instead of banging the computer desk I just take 10 sec and type a note about how he played the hand and that info can help me in a future spot. 

It's much easier said then done but the fast pace of online forces you to get over hands quickly bc the next one comes within a few seconds. No matter how mad you get it will not bring the chips back that you just lost so it's "on to the next one" as i say. Never easy to win a tournament and swings are inevitable! Like you said, expect the variance!! It's part of the game. 

**and to be completely honest i find that smoking trees helps me deal with 2 outers just fine  i also am a member of a 24 hour gym so after a rough sesh i can just go lift some weights an that immediately makes me feel better 

Really want to thank Jered Tindler for it is truely gets me through the tilt. I am a runner so over the past few days, I could have probably run a marathon to deal with it. Last night, I just took a break and got some good sleep. Woke up this morning and just said, I am going to play good poker, i took down my first tourney so back on the grind. 

So what do you all do with tilt? Do you run? Do you chase your losses? I would suggest stop, maybe look at your hand history, watch a video here on TPE, or go and exercise. Remember, this poker thing is a game and there are risks. Consistency and volume will hedge through the varience. The best thing I know to deal with it is "expect the varience". It isn't just the one hand that loses, if it was getting it in good, then keep getting it in good. It is the volume you put in, not just the hand. 

Peace out all