Doesn’t that wind u up? 13th for $145? So close yet so far…

Hmmm… I have had a couple of very close runs in the Big 55. A 13th and an 11th. Oh…and my best field finish a 20 th in a special edition Sunday Storm with 55000 runners. I too was kind of conflicted about them. On the one hand I was pissed at just missing out on the other I was inspired to have come so close. The first big 55 I played badly through inexperience, the Storm I played badly again through inexperience, but the next big 55 my game was good and I got unlucky. 

I knew then my time was nigh!

Alas, that was 2 years ago!

Edit: I have realised I am utterly crap at poker which is pretty depressing considering the time I have put  in to studying it.

There remains the definite possibility that I am in fact a genius at Holdem but I have just been running bad these years. I like this idea very much. It is my favourite theory in fact.

If I had to put a figure on it I would estimate the likelihood of it being true as very approximately 0.00829%.

Ahhh! A self fulfilling statement! How true! Unfortunately I made that statement when I first joined…it has already come true…

The only way is up!

I am a strong believer in positive energy though. So you’re right! I must emit positive energy and it shall be reflected back at me and multiplied! 

I’m not crap. I am learning. And I am getting better. In fact I am good at 180 man’s which is my bread and butter.  

I had a rubbish 2016 though which has demoralised me. Thanks Turbulence, I must think positive thoughts.

2017 will be good I have no doubt!

So you’ve gone all Kriss Akabusi on me with the PMA!? I can dig a bit of Akabusi!

You know, I hope folk here know not to take the Riceman too seriously.  I certainly don’t take myself too seriously,  in fact this is a fault with me.

My deal with my attitude in the TPE forums towards my game is to be anti-bullshit. There are a lot of fragile egos out there in poker who cannot admit to not being great at the game. Even to themselves. I wish to shine a light on my own inadequacies in order to show them the light.

Or whatever.

Call me Jesus.

I have a similar thing with Facebook whereby I get so utterly fed up with everyone posting photos of expensive holidays and new cars and “look at me my life rocks!”  that brother I keep it real on my Facebook. I let my so called Facebook friends know exactly what’s up in my lame ass life.

I’m not knocking genuine success or positivity…not at all… I am 110% behind that. For instance, I am right behind your sweat threads…this is positivity in action.

I just hate bullshitters is all!

Edit: I don’t mean to say I have witnessed too much of this at TPE. I can think of only one person this might apply to here in fact. Even then it wasn’t so much bullshit as arrogance. I’m not sure what it is about our game, but…particularly males I feel, can get mighty macho about poker. As we all know, this is a game for intellectuals (Did I really just say that?), and I think a man who plays regular poker and takes it seriously and is still not great might very well feel somewhat emasculated or intellectually deficient. If he has a fragile ego. Which is my point.

Then again, having thought that through, maybe it’s not a case of a fragile ego…it’s a case of him being pissed off that he realises that after all he is in fact mentally deficient.

Either way he should get over himself. The dimwit.